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Happy mothers day? Idk if it is mothers day. My mom doesn't like the holiday and sees it as a day for people to only treat their mothers nice for a day. and go back to treating them like shit.

Anyways I got a new chair to sit on!! It's a stool. I love it so much. It's much more comfortable and taller then the other one. And I get more space too!! I also gotten a new keyboard and mouse. it's a purple keyboard. It's much better then the keyboard that this pc came with. I didn't like the black and rainbow lcd lights. I actually didn't want any lcd lights, mostly because it didn't feel right to me? idk.

I do habe a problem with this new mouse tho. It's cute and all but the mouse is too sensitive. Like I move a inch and the mouse on the screen is already on the other side of the screen. Idk how I can make it less sensitive I'll figure it out or just live with it.

the mouse also feels too big. I'm use to using a smaller mouse plus my hands are kinda small.

Recently decided to use skyblue to host my drawings. Though twitter might be better since it does give you the option to keep your account private. But again Twitter is a hell hole and I prefer not to use it or go on it. Just for my mental health. But they do got some good artist on their.

My parents gave me a gift. A air conditionor, I love it. Now I don't burn in my room or get so overwelm by the heat. I can ask for another gift since May is a special month. I don't know. truth be told I am content with what I have. I used to want a lot of things but now I don't really want them. I guess I am just happy with I got. I love the things that I have now. But I do need to fix up my place. Ever since I moved It's been difficult to keep things in place. Oh! I think I'll ask for a pillow for my chair. Since I'm currently using a stool. I had a gaming chair but it's too big and uncomfortable to sit on. And I much prefer my stool

Oh I should learn to put specific music on this blog. I think it be fun especially with te dancing emotes I put on these pages

been feeling bleh once again. This weather really be throwing me off ngl. Anyways nothing new is happening. Other then just relaxing and playing video games. Mostly been in a mood of playing roblox and minecraft. They help turn my brain off.

I've also just been listening to some music to match my empty headed brain while I play games. mostly of vocaloid, and zero brain playlist.

Other topic. I've been getting into vocaloid and mother3. I don't play the game mother but I do enjoy listening to video's talking about it. I just really enjoy listening to others talk about their favorite things. I think it's the passion they give in these video's is what I love.

Actually I tend to get very positive in just seeing people doing what they like. rather it be a cringy crossover between eridan ampora talking to vegita to just talking about headcannons. I guess I thrive in cringe? idk. But I just like them.

I guess growing up online to see people show their passion was just amazing to me. But now it feels like everyone is just shitting on anyone for the smallest thing. I know that's always been a thing. But it feels like it's a lot more? idk :p.

can't believe it's the 20th. Been feeling so off and weird that I didn't notice how time past by. well time is always passing by. Anyways My pc is pretty shitty It's not slow or anything. on win 11 it doesn't come with the app and when I download win 10 it doesn't accept bluetooth. redownloading win 11 it got everything it needs but refuses to play minecraft. it's disapointing. But I thought about just using my laptop for gaming while my pc for art. it's a good soulution to me

Other news I'm thinking about creationing a furrinfinity account. As I did had it before but deleted for my mental health. But I don't know If I want to. I also wanted to make a deviantart account for my nsfw account but I don't know if I want to. I already have a account on it. But it's just to fave art and cute assets I use for my website.

TBH I think I just want a devianart account because its where it started for me. I used it when I was 11. posing drawings and making friends and I guess I just want to go back to that. But at the same time I just think to myself no. It's a weird feeling of discomfort and wanting to go back to the past.

Doing whatever I can to get rid of this weird feeling I've been having. I think it's the weather. Or maybe it's because next month is may.I always get so down in May. it's the most depressioning month for me. Despite May being a beautiful month with trees blooming beautiful flowers and the days getting warmer.

Eyooooo been feeling off once again. But I am handling much better then before. I really don't got any updates or plans. I've just been working on how I want the doodle page to look. I might also change the look of the credits since it looks goofy. o me at least.
I also been listening to music which has been helping my mood. Journaling has also been helpful as well. TBH I just want to color something. Or do something fun. So I think I'm going to play minecraft. I'm still waiting for that motivation to draw porn. But most of my motivation is just doing whatever.

looking back at my art nsfw art and I just think. Dam this shit is good. sure some mistakes here and their. And I want to post them. But get anxiety to post them and get a called out post. But then I remember. who the fuck is going to waste their time looking into my blog to call me out. I don't even use social media.

Finally fixed my sleep! I've been cleaning and fixing up my house! But I have been having a hard time talking and spelling. The change of weather is really throwing me off. the shit climate change does to a motherfucker. I have been more motivated so thats good. but currently I am struggling with my choices. mostly if I want to be a porn artis. it's fun to draw and all. But it's something I don't draw often. and when I do it's ocxcannon. and it's kinda getting boring to draw as well. I don't really draw porn of any characters. but it's also because I feel a little off? I don't know?

art block be dam. at least I think it's art block. I just feel no motivation to draw. And I don't feel like it. Well it's mostly me not wanting to draw porn. Anyway. Orange juice is amazing. I just love drinking orange juice. It feels refreshing to drink orange juice. Same with water I just enjoy these simple things. It helps me find joy.

can't wait for the warmer weather. I am looking forward to be inspired and motivated to draw something spring/summer themed. Actually no I can do that. I don't need to wait. spring and summer themed drawing LETS GOOOOO!

update Feeling a lot better. I've ate and just slept. I think it was just sleep that was messing with me? I'm unsure. But I am glad that I'm over it for now.

I don't have any plans. and I'm a little anxious. Really be playing bingo with mental health. Also been listening to smooth brain music. it's been helful with my anxiety.

I've been struggling with my pc. it didn't came with features that it should have. so I went and download windows 10. anyways today I've been reading a book called love everyday. the bookk is like a second therapy to me. I go to it to heal a part of me. And it's like a weight has been lifted off my shoulder. It's crazy how a book can be so helpful.

On another news I've been thinking about what to draw next. But honestly I just don't feel like drawing porn. I just want to relax and watch tv with my cat. I just want to relax tbh. just these past days have been mentally draining. So I'll let myself relax.

I'm pretty tired. I've been trying to fix mysleep schedule. I've also been learning more about html and css. They're very interesting to learn. I'm also planning for the next drawing. Tbh at times like this I don't get any good ideas. I also don't want to draw something without any effort. I have a very specific taste and likes when it comes to my nsfw art.

Drawing nsfw also helps improve my art and experiment with my art style. it's a fun challenge to me. On other note. I've discovered that I have autism. Which explains so dam much.

Happy late April 1! I know it's the second of April. But I like to celeberate even if it's late or early. ^^ But that doesn't mean I celeberate Christmass early.I ain't much of a Christmas girly. I could say I love Halloween. But in reality I don't. I don't really have a favorite holiday. But I do remember loving Halloween, when I was younger.

Today I have a plan of fixing my sleep. Another plan I have is to stream my recent sketch of Tiffany Ray from bride of Chucky! Another plan is just be productive in general. I also wanna update my music taste blog. I have found some song I liked and wanted to share for those who are curious. I really have a strange music taste. ^^

Other plan is to also update the credits blog. I've been using a lot of emotes from devianart. And I want to personally credit them all in a dedicated blog!

Today I went looking around to use a html template. Because the one's I made look goofy. This html is made by Repth Go to their website! they got a lot of cool stuff!!

I also have plans to make another page where I post fanart and a commission sheet!

I love rice puding. Anyway, whenever I have a good idea i just become feral beast. But I also become too lazy to draw it out HBWRJFBWEJHB. I want to edit my website but at the same time. I don't feel like it. same with my drawing idea I had. I just wanna sleep tbh.

I'm thinking of making another website or making another blog to post more of my interest. One of those interest is the morbid curiosity I have. and stories that I like. But at the same time I don't really feel like it. cause I'm pretty much already doing that on this website. such as sharing my strange music taste, post my doodles and nsfw art. But I could make a original project website. But I need to learn more about html,css and more.

I just learned how to make my doodle blog have it's art be in the center

found out how to make a background into these padding. And honestly I wanna break through a wall.